It’s shocking, I know! I’m writing a blog post. As much as I’d like to blog every day or even every month, my to-do list never allows it. I have endless ideas but currently, I’m writing about other things, so I never seem to get it from my head to the paper. But sometimes God does something, and you just have to tell everyone.
Last week I experienced the miraculous. Some might argue the story I’m about to share doesn’t qualify as miraculous but for my weary heart, it was nothing short of a miracle. At church on Sunday, God gave me Isaiah 40-:29-31 that says:
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
This describes my experience with Jesus last week. I was struggling. I was weary and weak. I know God’s presence and I trust Him but truthfully, I STILL struggle…a lot. I struggle to continue to have hope when I can’t see an end. I easily get distracted with what I want and before I know it selfish feelings are demanding attention. To make matters worse I usually heap a giant load of guilt on top, just for good measure, because I’m a mature Christian woman, I SHOULD NOT still be dealing with this.
Thankfully, the Lord is always working in me. I chose not to shy away from the hopeless feelings that hit me last weekend. I was real about how I felt, and I processed my emotions with the Jesus. Several situations last year have left me in a vulnerable & raw place emotionally and the only way to keep from stuffing my feelings is to process right away with Jesus. I love that God doesn’t need me to actually speak my thoughts and emotions to Him because he already knows everything. Yet the process of doing so always brings me so much clarity. What I get in the process is understanding and instructions. I was able to process my emotions and then move on.
Later in the week, Matt had his regular small group meeting. Instead of leading the discussion, as he had planned, God had different plans. Instead, another member of the group prophesied destiny over him. The experience had a profound effect on Matt especially after reading a text I had sent him that were the EXACT words his friend was proclaiming. My text was simple: Good luck! Praying for a supernatural experience. But the impact it had on Matt in that moment was profound, dare I say, life changing! It was God’s way of showing up and confirming all that was spoken about him.
For me, it had a different effect. I was battling hopelessness, again. And again, Jesus very lovingly took me by the hand and said, “no worries, I’ve got this.” My Heavenly Father handled my feelings with care in the moment and then confirmed His presence and provision later in the week. Thank you, Jesus, for the miraculous things you do in my life every day and allowing me to “soar on wings like eagles.”